I had a great weekend myself. Minus the ridiculous temperature of about 110 degrees i had a fun time DJing a friends wedding, dancing the night away, and partying. I wish i could tell you that i stayed on track with my dieting! But i didn't....
Thats one of the hardest parts of being successful on your fitness journey. Its always hard to be disciplined and have a good time when you dont have alot of healthy options around you. After eating some serious pasta at the wedding, having a few beers, and one giant and hilarious cupcake food fight later i had completely obliterated any hope of staying on course. In all fairness i didnt actually get to EAT the cupcake, it was mostly in my hair, and all over my face! HAHAHA
The Results of the Cupcake War!
*My Mom is going to kill me for putting this on here!
Even though we made a TON of wonderful memories that night, i totally felt terrible the next day. I actually missed my plain foods and salads. Plus i had a nice little hangover too.
There is nothing wrong with having fun, and every once and a while you can embrace a "cheat meal" and feel fine. I feel that since i am in the very beginning of this journey i need to avoid cheat meals for now, and stay on track...
Finally yesterday i went back to the gym, with my new little gym scanning key chainy thing i felt like i could conquer the world! Boy was i wrong! After the first 15 minutes of working out with Junior ( my boyfriend, who is a total muscle man) I started feeling terrible! I realized how truly out of shape i am. Everything hurt more than it used to. I got tired faster, and i hated what i was seeing in the big mirrors at the gym. All the thoughts in my mind were like little bullies telling me "Hey, Look how fat you are! You can't do this! Everyone is watching you! Everyone thinks you are a total joke! Everyone here looks better than you! Everyone can't believe that guy who is so in shape is with someone as out of shape as you!" These were all exactly the thoughts going on in my head last night. Out of breath, and already so sore after fifteen minutes into my workout, i sat down for a minute and wanted to just bawl my eyes out! How did i let myself get like this? I was so angry.
Then i said HELL NO!... to my thoughts, to all my fears, and to my body that was already quitting on me. How can i allow myself to cave and quit AGAIN?!! Thats what i have always done. After a drink of water, and getting my head in the right place, i went back at it!
Today i'm sore and i'm ready to just sleep in bed and watch movies all day, but most importantly i feel good mentally. I feel happy that i'm fighting my hardest struggle. You can do it too! Theres nothing wrong with falling down over and over as long as you get back up!
I Can't wait to go back to the gym later tonight!
Love,
Pookie
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